Fuck all of my mind, I don’t get it !!! why the devils
so- a lot and why he always brothering me, like he don’t any work to do. But I
still protect my self even I do it again and again, is this funny. Sometimes I
feel inside is good and just a moment they blow up for fun. why ? I so sloppy
and slip to my self, high pressure I don’t even konow. Sometimes to being spill
can make it right on next time or it can be the experience for me not to get
worst again. I love my self when my heart was nice to me. Bad devil I was name
it. Honest and to talk the thruth hard so hard to me but why they are always
trust to. ! get worst and worst for second and it can take me
called bad person to her. All I want is you@ to take care me when I take
wrong road and I am so lonely in this road , may ! May I take you to my road
and walk there….i wait and wait just to see---WHERE THE FUCKING CAR------- who
take this road !!!!! plese try to know me and don’t you look me on the out of my frount. I am glad at least I write this
from my heart to you comp.
04-02-2005
I know now, how are my feeling is
and I really know what disappoint is. You know I cry now. why time
can’t back again and will make it correct and not to being shame for you. I
wanna thanks GOD for all you’ve been planed for my life. I know I must get Up
for this and for that. Finally I much thanks glad for what I being here. Lot of my destruction for my self to be prepare and for
up to being great this time and ever222222 !
14-02-2005
I would know where my real side. I
don’t know what I want to write. I know I am not like you, sweet song and full
of peace of me. It’s nothing I can do to face against the wall, its full me
guilty baby. It’s nothing wrong with me why you always…..? or something where it can help me while a moment cause it use for me to think
about the future what should I …is that learn or games or music or figure at
all the things I should..emm its nice idea but so confusing ,I know I must do
it one by one or slow by slow.can you help me !!!?
17-02-2005
Think to be real for this life, consure me for make the
changes and the paper that I write is so easy to taken – taken my mind and he
know what my problem is and countdown me for a crazy mind, in the evening I
have feeling that I must result what I must doing too and for next day I don’t
know if I concius for this life and for you, that you know I always miss all the things you do.
You know I am a lot of talking and don’t know what I am
talking about.
I Wonder
I get you so proud
Wonder
I miss you so much.
I life
in the city right beside you. You know I must see you. Believe or not I miss
you
You
know I’ve got shock of you go
Don’t
know know where I stand for day-to days and to follow you Right on your back
You
know I must know where you live.
Take
me home nice and easy right for me
I
follow you , you know it’s just come up.
31-03-2005
Everyone
are afraid about noising and when lonely come
Who’s care about morning !
they only care what are going happen
when daylight come. Is it just like that ! what a dumb life. I will find
someone who wanna fight for this life with my smart heart !!!!!!!!
01-08-2005
Stop me tonight, you are already be inside my head totake
care everything with you. Go for next wonderful life. Miss you miss you. To
turn up my feeling its so easy, just giving me happines then I’ll sleep over
every night. Took so long for give you this feeling but she said that iam not
the one that her thrust.go ! are you gonna be fine everyday with me. Why why.
And I KNOW IT MUST BE LATE CAUSE YOU
DON’T KNOW HOW I FIGHT FOR BEING SEE YOU. HOW YOU DO THAT.JUSTTTTTTTT
SHUT UP. THERE SOMETHING VERY WRONG.
Ass, why this day
are empty there’s no friend with me to take my feeling fly and free.this day
too I’ll back to where I lived in kost. I has been here with raka father’s. and
then I’ll get settled my room. And seing sassy girl at television. I has
separated for my KP friend’s cause 31 day was out .
06-11-2006
I want
to ask something what it takes to be me to be the real me, for what I do last my
life have been so far away. Don’t know what to do and still thinking about how
and how I will be. Then you are not come yet, I have been waiting you for so
long. And still waiting until now. Did you ever know how I feel ! feel to be
lonely and seems not understand my self. Can you ?
This
is my faith.my curch. Did I do something wrong. I remember the name that you
wrote me and it all still keep inside of me. To be learn and learn more, to be
brave and strong enough become.
